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The Princess and the Wolf
The
Clan of the Wolf Book 1
by
Karen Kay
Genre:
Historical Romance
TWO
HEARTS BETRAYED
Refusing
to believe the rumors that the European prince she was forced to
marry had died in a far-off land, the princess, Sierra, sets sail to
America, bent on revenge and determined to learn the truth. Because
she will require a scout to guide her through the wilderness, she
calls in a favor from the man who had betrayed her long ago, the man
she had once loved deeply and had hoped to wed, the noble Cheyenne
scout, High Wolf.
Many
years before, a European prince had invited High Wolf to travel an
ocean and as a brother, to live as a member of the royal family.
There High Wolf had fallen in love with the princess, Sierra. But
instead of an engagement and the planned wedding, the princess had
treacherously married his friend, the prince. Betrayed and
broken-hearted, High Wolf sailed back to America, determined to
forget the princess. But a promise given to her years earlier brings
her back into his life, igniting a desire he must resist, for to
surrender to her again is unthinkable.
Forced
into one another’s company, with the threat of life or death around
every corner, overcoming their prejudice might be their only means of
survival. But can either of them trust in a love, once betrayed? Or
will their past force them apart again, this time forever?...
This
book has been previously published.
Warning:
A sensuous romance that might fan the flames of desire. Be warned.
You might fall in love all over again.
“The
housekeeper tells that
’
tis
well known the prince would divorce her, were he here,” said the
kitchen maid.
“Aye,
that he would,” replied the housemaid. “And good riddance, says
I. It was she that drove him away. That she did.”
Gossip
between servants at
Prince
Alathom’s
Castle
“Do
you wish anything else before we go ashore?”
“No,
Maria,” answered Princess Sierra, watching from her perch high
above the dock, as Governor Clark stepped from the carriage,
accompanied by an Indian maiden. “I do not require anything else at
the moment. You’ve done quite well, my friend, despite the
demanding conditions of this vessel.” She gave Maria a brief smile.
“Would you please find Mr. Dominic and inform him that I am ready
to leave this ship?”
“Yes,
Your Highness. At once. Do we go to greet Governor Clark, then?”
“I
believe so,” said the princess. “And for this task, I
will
have need of you both to accompany me.”
“Yes,
Your Highness,” Maria said, curtsying before she turned to do as
bid.
Sierra
smoothed a white-gloved hand over the blue and white muslin of her
very full skirt, pulling the lace that bordered her walking dress
into place. Straightening her shoulders, she settled her blue and
white-lace mantle over the double bouffant of her sleeves, buttoning
the mantle’s closure at the neck. Briefly, she touched her wide
belt, which was made of the same light blue color as her dress,
pulling it a little more tightly around her waist so as to accentuate
its most tiny aspect. A white straw bonnet, adorned with ribbons of
blue and tied at the neck, completed the image of the fashionable
royal that she was.
Opening
her blue and white parasol, Sierra narrowed her eyes, placing a hand
gently over her forehead as though it were an extra shield from the
sun. She frowned.
From
her view of it, there seemed to be no sign of the man she had
instructed Governor Clark to hire. Had she needlessly tortured
herself over this first meeting with High Wolf?
Perhaps
he hadn’t yet arrived.
Or
maybe, she thought on a grimmer note, he wasn’t coming. Had he
mayhap learned that it was she behind the request?
For
a moment, she worried over the possibility. As absurd as it might
appear, such a thing was possible: He might know of her coming. He’d
always seemed to have ways of gleaning information about things—ways
that she had never understood. Perhaps he had discovered her scheme
well ahead of the fact.
At
that thought, Sierra tried to swallow her disappointment.
It
wasn’t that she was looking forward to seeing him again. No. It was
only that he, and he alone, could lead her to Prince Alathom, and it
was Prince Alathom she needed to find and challenge, Prince Alathom
whom she would repay in kind...if need be...
Squaring
her shoulders and setting her features into as delightful a smile as
she could, Princess Sierra pulled unconsciously at her mantle,
noticing as she did so that her fingers shook with the effort.
It
was then that she caught sight of something in her peripheral
vision...something familiar. She turned her head carefully to the
left, her eyes colliding with and staring hard at a pair of dark eyes
looking directly back at her.
Her
stomach flipped over twice before it at last performed a dive toward
her toes. She inhaled swiftly to try to quell the reaction.
It
was he, High Wolf. He had come, after all.
As
impossible as it might seem, she stared back at a face that she had
once thought never to see again. Yet, there he was; there, across a
very short distance.
And
unable to curtail it, she was suddenly awash in nearly palpable
relief.
Relief?
Nonsense. It was probably more to the point to say that she was glad
that her scheme now contained the element of possibility, the
possibility of success.
But
if he were to be caught looking up at her, she would be staring back
down at him as well, almost as though she were hungry for the sight
of him…although she corrected herself, this last thought was
ridiculous.
Again,
she reminded herself that he, as well as the prince, had betrayed
her. In different ways, perhaps. But betrayal was certain treachery
after all, regardless of the circumstances. And faith, once lost,
could never be restored.
Still,
despite the intervening years, an all too familiar pain shot through
her, and without her conscious will, she found herself scrutinizing
the man she had once thought herself to be in love with...a man who
had left her for no more than three hundred gold dukaten.
He
looked much the same as he had ten years ago, yet different. Whereas
High Wolf had been little more than a boy then, he was now very much
a man, and he looked bigger somehow, though he was still
extraordinarily slim. Perhaps it was because his chest was wider,
larger...or perhaps he was more muscular.
He
looked...better, more handsome, more virile.
Sierra
grimaced at her thoughts and decided to scrutinize something else
less potent...his manner of dress, for instance...
Gone
were the fashionable trousers and high leather boots that she
remembered him wearing in the past; in their place were buckskin
leggings, breechcloth and moccasins. Gone also were the carefully
stitched linen shirt and cravat so precisely tied, supplanted now
with a long buckskin shirt, fringed, with the bottom of it hanging
down almost past his breechcloth. An ornament of what looked to be a
concatenation of beads and bone, in the shape of a breastplate, hung
down over his chest. It was a sight she had never beheld until this
moment.
Instead
of a hat, however, he now wore feathers on his head—or at least
there was one feather sticking straight up behind him. And his
hair...
Relegated
to the past was the fashionable haircut she recalled so well,
displaced now by long, black hair that hung well past his shoulders.
He
looked...Indian, alien from all she had ever known and loved. Yet his
countenance was, contrarily, as familiar to her as a well-rehearsed
play.
And
she wondered: Despite their past, would he help her?
Not
if he knew her purpose.
Only
too well, she recalled that High Wolf considered the prince to be
more than a friend. To him, and perhaps rightly so, Prince Alathom
was a brother, a brother in fact as well as in deed. Besides, High
Wolf would hardly condone her murderous plan...a scheme she fully
intended to execute if the prince refused to return to the Continent,
whereupon he would take up his responsibilities.
Indeed,
she would be satisfied.
Those
at home thought she knew nothing of their wagging tongues; they
believed their whispered insults were discreet. But Sierra did know.
She did care. And he would pay.
Oh,
yes, he would pay.
Which
meant, she realized, that the real reason for her journey must remain
a well-guarded secret; from Governor Clark, from her guides and
especially from High Wolf.
She
only wondered if she could successfully hide her motives from High
Wolf. After all, as she had already surmised, High Wolf was an
extremely perceptive man. Might he guess?
Well,
it was up to her to keep her secret well hidden. She only hoped she
was up to the task.
***
He
stared at her as though he had come face-to-face with his worst
nightmare—or maybe his best fantasy. Princess Sierra? Here? Now?
His
heart skipped a beat, then picked up its pace, pounding onward in
triple speed. High Wolf caught his breath before forcing himself to
breathe in and out. In a daze, he stared up at her, feeling as though
he were caught in an illusion.
Had
she come for him? Had she traveled all this distance to reach out to
him, realizing after all this time that she could not live without
him, as she had once proclaimed?
Or
was she a mere mirage, the same sort of image that haunted his
dreams?
Without
warning, the desire to run to her, to take her in his arms and
embrace her, was almost more real than the solidness of the ground
beneath him. Of its own will, the memory of the taste of her, the
scent of her, the sweetness of her embrace, overwhelmed him.
And
he knew he needed, he wanted to kiss her. Now. In truth, so strong
was the desire, he had taken a few steps toward her before he became
once more fully aware of himself, and stopped.
The
prince. How could he have forgotten the prince—as well as her
duplicity—so easily? Where was the prince?
Odd,
he thought, how the mind could forget the pain, the anguish, the
loss. For a moment, all had been gone, replaced by the simple joy of
seeing her again. Odd, too, how his body was even now reacting, that
most manly part of him pulsing with every pounding of his heart,
remembering, anticipating...what could never be.
He
groaned. He had to bring himself, his thoughts, his body under
control, quickly.
Concentrate
on her faithlessness, he cautioned himself. Hers and Prince
Alathom’s.
He
glanced to the side of her and all around her. Where was the prince?
And
then, as though it came through the fog cluttering his mind, a
thought came to him. Governor Clark had hired him, had told High Wolf
that he was to escort and protect a royal party, one that was coming
to the Americas for a wild-game hunt.
It
was the prince and princess . It had to be.
Had
the two of them asked for him, personally? For old time’s sake? Was
that why Clark had sent for him?
Or
was this mere coincidence?
Coincidence?
He sneered. High Wolf knew there was no such thing.
Had
the two of them no compassion? No pity?
Surely
they were aware of what the mere act of seeing them
again—together—would do to him.
Or
did they think that they could renew friendship? That he would have
forgotten?
Well,
he had not forgotten; he could not.
Breathing
in deeply, High Wolf calmed himself. He was letting his emotions take
control of his mind, even of his body. It was possible, he conceded,
that he was not thinking clearly, putting elements together that did
not necessarily go together.
Besides,
he didn’t have to take the job at hand. He had not pledged his
word.
And
it wouldn’t be as if he were deserting the prince and princess,
either. After all, there were these two disreputable trappers that
Clark had hired as well.
Wearily,
High Wolf glanced at the two shabbily dressed men. Yes, let them have
the assignment...while he, High Wolf, quietly disappeared...
Surely,
that would be best. For indeed, if this were his initial reaction to
the princess—and at this great a distance from her—what would be
his fate if he were to witness her beauty closer to hand?
At
that thought, a rush of desire swept through him that was as
uncontrollable as it was unwelcome. In truth, so swift was his
reaction, he rocked back on his feet.
The
response shocked him as much as it excited him. And High Wolf knew he
had best renew his intention to leave—quickly...
Yet
he didn’t budge so much as an inch. In faith, he could not have
turned away from her now had he been a saint. Not yet.
Contrarily,
another part of him reasoned that little harm could come from
feasting his sights upon her for a while longer. Perhaps the image
gained could serve to fuel the fiber of his
imagination
in the lonely nights ahead of him.
Make
no mistake, Princess Sierra had always been the most beautiful
creature he had ever seen, and it appeared she had changed little,
except to have blossomed. More curves, more womanly features.
As
he stared, his heart warmed to his subject. Dark curls bounced around
her face while her bonnet hid the rest of her coiffure. Oval face,
high cheekbones, eyes that he knew were as green as a prairie in
spring. Even from this distance, he could attest that her skin still
glowed with health and vitality. It was one of the features he
remembered most about her. Her skin had been luminous, clear; had
shone with a radiance even under cover of darkness, as though she
might be lit by a fire within.
How
he had loved to run his hands over her face, her neck, those
curves...
Cease
this, he cautioned himself, letting out his breath.
Yet
the mind was often a mysterious thing, and despite himself, his
thoughts rambled on. At five foot four, she had always been a slender
little thing. He recalled that he had once spanned her waist within
the outstretched grip of both his hands. They had laughed about it.
All
three
of them. Himself, Prince Alathom and the princess.
Odd,
how close the three of them had once been, so close they had shared
most everything.
High
Wolf sighed.
Perhaps
it was the way of the world that some things—even good things—were
destined to end. Maybe that was why one should reach out for all the
happiness he could have, while it still lay within his grasp.
Taking
a few steps away, High Wolf at last turned his back on the sight of
her. Best to disappear now, as quickly as possible. For of one matter
he was entirely certain: He would not escort the princess and the
prince. Not now. Not ever.
He
took a few steps away.
“High
Wolf!”
His
insides plummeted at the sound of her voice. Yet he remained
steadfast in his decision and kept walking, ignoring the call.
“High
Wolf, don’t go!”
Don’t
listen to her, he counseled himself. Go now, before she has a chance
to weave her spell around you. Go at once .
But
even as he thought it, an odd music, a rhythm perchance, began to
pound through his mind, reminding him of other places, other times...
Brave Wolf and the Lady
The
Clan of the Wolf Book 2
He
saved her life, then stole her heart….
To
escape an arranged marriage, Mia Carlson, daughter of a U.S. senator,
instead elopes with the man she loves. As they are escaping from her
Virginia home, heading west, their wagon train is brutally attacked,
leaving Mia alone and in grave danger. Rescue comes from a most
unlikely source, a passing Lakota scouting party, led by the darkly
handsome Indian, Brave Wolf.
Although
Brave Wolf has consented to guide Mia to the nearest trading post, he
holds himself apart from her, for his commitments lie elsewhere. But
long days on the trail lead to a deep connection with the red-haired
beauty. Yet, he can’t stop wondering why death and danger stalk
this beautiful woman, forcing him to rescue her time and again. Who
is doing this, and why?
One
thing is clear, however: Amid the flurry of dodging assassin bullets,
Brave Wolf and Mia come into possession of a powerful love. But is it
all for naught? Will Brave Wolf’s obligations and Mia’s secret
enemy from the past finally succeed in the sinister plot to destroy
their love forever?
She
awoke slowly, and to the scent of the fresh, wet dew that had settled
over the entire landscape. The cloud-like moisture that hung over
everything made for a gray morning, yet there was something
comforting about it, all the same. In the distance, the sound of
many different bird songs filled the air with music, and she wished
that she could distinguish one song from the other. But she
couldn’t, and she sighed at her inability.
Soon
a deep, masculine voice, raised in song, drifted to her on the
breeze. Of course, the voice had to belong to Mr. Lakota. What time
was it? Where was he? He sounded far away.
Already
the low-to-the-ground moisture was giving way to the new day. Was
that really a pinkish-orange sun showing through the scattering of
the steel gray mist and light-colored blue clouds? Obviously it was
morning, and soon they would be back upon the trail. Shame. She
would have liked to linger here if only to “catch her breath.”
She
started to rise, but winced when her muscles refused to obey her.
Fair enough, she thought, and she lay back down, only to find herself
staring straight up. Dawn crept into the sky slowly today, but even
still, faint colors of orange and pink were settling into the
gray-blackened sky. The feel of the wet mist touched her everywhere,
bringing with it the scents of mud, grass and prairie flowers.
Below
her the ground was soft and giving, encompassing her weight with
ease. The blanket that he had laid beneath her was warm, and for a
moment, she experienced a feeling of well-being.
But
the awareness was quickly gone, replaced instead by the utter
realization of her loss. The tears, which were never far away,
blurred her vision. She sobbed, then she checked it. She didn’t
want him to know she was awake. Why she felt this way, she didn’t
understand. She only knew that these few moments alone felt
important to her well-being.
Luckily,
he appeared to not notice her at all, for his singing continued, his
voice deep and baritone. In many ways it was soothing to listen to
him, but after a while she began to wonder what he was doing, and why
he was singing at such an early hour of the morning, and to whom was
he paying tribute?
Turning
silently onto her side, she saw him at last, and despite herself, she
found the sight of him inspiring. He was facing east, his arms
outstretched, as though he welcomed the misty warmth of sun into
them. Perhaps he was.
She
watched him for the spread of a few more moments, admiring the
muscles in his broad shoulders. The two lengths of his hair-braids
fell down over his back, a back which narrowed in a V-shape into his
breechcloth. An eagle’s feather waved back and forth in the
ever-present wind, and she was reminded that there was a beauty to
this moment that even she didn’t understand.
That’s
when she realized it.
He
was praying.
She
sat up smoothly, so as not to distract him. Was she wrong about
that? No.
He
was standing, his legs apart, his arms open. And he sang and he
sang.
There
was a wonderment to the moment that reached out to her, but rather
than such pleasure bringing her relief, her appreciation brought on
more tears, which fell gently onto her bosom. That’s when it
struck her: she hadn’t talked to the Lord since she had laid
Jeffrey in the ground. Perhaps there was reason for that lack, for
she couldn’t understand why God had taken a person so precious from
her.
Watching
Mr. Lakota carefully, she discovered a need in her to do the same.
Perhaps a talk with the Lord might help her to understand her loss.
She
rose up to a sitting position, and from there she came to her knees,
and then onto her feet. She took up her rifle, placing it in the
crook of her arm, as she stepped toward him, and reaching him, she
fell to her knees. With head bowed, she brought her free hand to
his, taking his in her own.
It
gave her comfort to know he was there, to know that he, too, was
praying. Perhaps between the two of them, God might smile more
favorably on her...on them both, and perhaps He might forgive her the
anger, the absolute horror, that even now stirred in her soul...
***
Her
hand squeezed his, and he realized its gentle pressure brought him
pleasure. It wasn’t that he was surprised by her appearance by his
side, for he’d known when she had awakened, and he’d heard her
footfalls, quiet though they had been. But her action in touching him
created a flood of feeling within him that he was not prepared to
understand. It was the first time she had reached out toward him,
and he was surprised that he liked it.
Leaving
his hand held tightly within hers, he glanced down at her as she
knelt by his side. Her hair, tousled from sleep, shone with a wild,
reddish hue, here beneath the grandiose of the pink and golden sky.
Her eyes were shut and her head was bent toward the ground.
He
understood. She had come here to pray with him and to give thanks to
the Creator for a new day. After a while, he gazed away from her,
turning his attention back toward the early morning sun, as the misty
world around them exploded with a mirage of colors, steel gray of the
sky, orange, pink and blue rays of the morning light.
“Hepela
hepela!
“Onsimala
ye. Omakiyi ye.
“Cante’was’teya
o’ciciyin kte.”
“Hepela
hepela!
“Onsimala
ye. Omakiyi ye.
“Cante’was’teya
o’ciciyin kte.”
“Hepela
hepela!
“Onsimala
ye. Omakiyi ye.
“Cante’was’teya
o’ciciyin kte.”
He
finished the song, yet he didn’t relinquish her hand. They stood
thusly, each seemingly reluctant to bring the moment to a close. It
was as though time itself had ceased to be, and though slow to
acknowledge his feelings, he felt a part of him draw closer to her.
From out the corner of his eye, he saw her make the sign of a cross
over her head and chest, and he realized her prayer had come to an
end.
At
last she looked up at him, and he turned his gaze on her entirely.
Her eyes looked like large, doe-colored jewels in her heart-shaped
face; they appeared to question him, and he held that look, until at
last, she gazed away. At length, she struggled to her feet and he
took her weight upon him easily as he helped her up.
Neither
of them spoke. There seemed to be no need. At last she voiced,
“Thank you.”
He
nodded briefly.
She
let go of his hand then, and he surprised himself by the bereft
feeling he experienced at its loss.
He
said, “Custom...it is to...welcome day...by giving thanks
to...Creator. You...may...be here with...me every...morning...if
you...like.” His voice, he noted, was husky, and he was stunned by
that fact.
“I
would like that,” she murmured in a tone that sounded as throaty as
his. She glanced toward the ground. “I would like that very
much.”
“Waste,
good,” he voiced with a quick motion of his hand away from his
chest. “It...good. Now...we must...prepare. Long...trek we
have...this day.”
“Yes,
yes, of course,” she spoke quickly, glancing away from him before
she turned to take the necessary steps back to the place where she
had slept. He watched her momentarily as she picked up the blanket
that had buffered her from the ground during the night. He saw her
fold it and place it in one of his bags.
That’s
when he realized that she would be wanting a bath. All creatures
needed the cleanliness of the water, but women in particular seemed
to enjoy these necessities excessively, even when on the move. It
would be his duty to locate a secluded place, free from the danger of
enemy eyes, where she could freshen herself.
Idly
he realized she would require freedom from his wandering glance as
well. It was not a comforting thought to realize that an image of
her body, completely naked, entered into his imaginings. With force
of will, he refused to think that thought again...
***
He
astonished her. Before they set out upon their journey this day, he
produced a pouch full of water, and handing her a sprig of grass that
smelled like mint, he showed her how to use the plant to clean her
teeth. Next, he set out a small piece of buckskin on the ground, and
made the signs for wetting it and washing the face.
“Yes,
thank you,” she told him. “I understand. These are for me to
wash and prepare myself for the day.”
“Hau,
hau,”
he said.
“But
where did you find the water?”
“In
tatanka...buffalo...wallow.”
“A
buffalo wallow? What is that?”
“Place
where...buffalo bulls fight...”
“A
place where buffalo bulls fight? You mean those muddy holes I’ve
seen across the prairie – where the bulls lock horns and go round
and round? This water must be dirty.”
“Water...clean
enough to...wash face.”
“Yes,
well, that might be a matter of opinion, but it doesn’t matter. I
am not in the comfort of my home, and I am certainly in no position
to be picky. I thank you.”
He
surprised her again when he produced a brush. It was crudely cut, a
wooden stick carved so as to mimic a comb, but in case she didn’t
realize its use, he used it in the pretense of combing his hair.
When finished, he laid the “brush” out for her use.
“I...this
is very kind of you, Mr. Lakota.”
He
nodded, and leaving these things in her possession, he rose up to his
full height and trod away from her. She starred at his departing
figure, noticing idly that his masculine gait blew his breechcloth
back and forth in the wind. At once she was contrite for the
observation, and she felt more than a little disrespectful to
Jeffrey’s memory.
Still,
she hadn’t thought to bring such items. When they had first set
out upon the trail, her attention had been so introspective that to
even consider what toiletries she might need had been beyond her
ability. But he had thought to pack them...for her? Perhaps.
Whether
for her, or for some other reason, she was thankful that he’d had
the foresight to remember them. Slowly, with some apprehension, she
picked up the “comb” and began the long process of chasing the
knots from her hair.
Awhile
later, Mr. Lakota returned to her, and squatting in front of her, he
produced a kit from another one of those numerous bags he carried.
Opening it, he pulled out some “paint,” and placed a red dot on
the crease between her eyes.
When
she looked at him questioningly, he explained, “Hot sun...protect
against...”
She
nodded, and gazing a little ways up at him, she again compared him to
a walking arsenal. A rather handsome and human one, true, but he
looked prepared for battle. He wore many of their bags around his
shoulders as well as his bow and quiver full of arrows. Resting on
his thighs were two rifles, and there were rounds of ammunition
strapped around his waist.
He
uttered, “We...go now.”
“Yes,”
she murmured, her tone of voice guttural, which caused her to
introspect. What was wrong with her?
He
was still squatting in front of her when he replaced the red paint in
a pouch, and produced similar pots of white and black paint. With a
firm hand, he dabbed the colors on his own face, making a pattern
that reminded her of how he had appeared the first time she had seen
him.
She
shivered. She would rather have not recalled that memory.
“Why
do you use that paint on your face?” she asked quietly, perhaps
with the hope that talking might distract her from her own thoughts.
“Stop
sun...from burning...and...look...fierce...if meet...enemy.”
She
gasped. “Do you think we’ll be coming into contact with an
enemy?”
He
shrugged. “Perhaps. Come,” he said as he came up onto his feet.
“We leave...now. Long...walk.” And with this short and
to-the-point explanation, he turned away from her, his gait swift.
“Wait!”
she called as she jumped to her feet and followed him. “May I
carry one of those bags?”
He
turned back toward her, a frown marring his countenance. Quickly his
gaze scanned her from the top of her head to the tips of her toes.
“We...walk
far. Bag could...be...heavy for...one not used to...travel...by
foot…one who…grieving…”
“Yes,
it could,” she replied. “And if it does become so, I will let
you know so that you might help me.”
He
nodded, although he did give her a strange, searching stare.
Nevertheless, he released one of the pouches from around his
shoulders, took a step toward her and placed it gently over her head.
However, he appeared to take much too much care to avoid touching
her hair or her shoulders, or any part of her at all. For her
comfort? For his? All in all, she supposed she appreciated his
care.
For
the pulse of a swift moment, he stood back looking at her with an
appreciative glance. Was he admiring his handiwork, she wondered, or
was he approving of her?
“Look...good.”
Briefly,
she smiled, and was surprised to see that his gaze lingered over her
lips. But the look was quickly gone, and as he turned away, she
asked herself again whether that glint of admiration was for her.
No.
Probably, she thought, the sun had got into his eye...
***
She
hobbled a little to try to catch up with him. He turned back toward
her, squinting at her.
“You...find...leather
of...shoe?”
“I...I
did not. I searched for it everywhere. But...”
He
stepped back toward her, retracing his path. As he came up level
with her, he ordered, “You...stay...”
“I
am no dog, sir, to be told to sit, stay or roll over.”
He
grinned at her. “I...not...confused about...that.”
She
crossed her arms over her chest. “I looked and looked for the sole
of my shoe, but I couldn’t find it.”
“I
will...find it. You...here...stay.”
“No.
I’m afraid to be left alone.”
His
fleeting look at her was enough to cause Mia to realize that her
defiance frustrated him. After four days of travel with this man,
she had become used to witnessing the tiny nuances that told of this
young man’s emotional moods. Years from now, she thought, he would
most likely master those miniscule flickers of concern.
For
now she was glad to have acquired some means to recognize his frame
of mind. She said, “Please don’t be upset with me. The pea
vines and other prickly bushes are constantly stinging me and tearing
at my dress. It’s so much easier to find a piece of my clothing
hanging from a bush, than it is to locate the bottom of my shoe stuck
in the mud somewhere. The tall grass alone makes it hard to see the
ground clearly, and when I bend to look to try to find it, I get
pricked.”
He
nodded. “You speak...true. This...why I go...find it. Easier for
me. You...stay...here.”
“I...can’t.
I can’t be without you.”
For
a moment she caught a surprised light in his eye as he regarded her.
“Don’t
you see?” she went on to explain. “What if something happened to
you? What if you didn’t return? I would rather be with you and
face what you face, even if that be death, than to stay here on my
own, unknowing. Without you I would die here in this world of grass
and vines.”
The
curious look was gone, and in its place was a glimpse of... Was that
admiration?
He
said, “Understood. Will try to...teach you way...of prairie. Then
not be...afraid.”
“Good,”
she acknowledged. “I would appreciate that, but that’s in the
future. For now, I must go with you.”
He
drew his brows together in a frown as he stepped toward her.
Nevertheless, he uttered, “Then walk...low to ground. Like
this...” He bent over double.
“All
right, I will. But why must we spend so much time trying to find
this? What difference does the bottom of a shoe make? Truly, who’s
to see it in this environment of dirt and grass?”
“Land
full...” He waved his hands out and away from him. “...of
Indian tonwe’ya,
scouts. If find shoe...they follow...our...trail. Us they
kill...maybe.”
“Oh,”
she frowned. “I see. Is that why you’ve had me go back over the
trail so many times to find the pieces of my dress when I’ve torn
it on the bushes?”
“It
is so.”
She
sighed. “Then I had better help you, I suppose, and be more
careful where I step a foot, for it was in a muddy patch of ground
where I lost my shoe’s sole.”
“Waste,
good. Ito’
come.”
Mimicking
him, she grappled with the rifle to find a comfortable position, then
she bent over at the waist, following him as they made a slow
progress back over their tracks. Amazingly, she had no doubt that he
would find that stray piece of leather, and he did not disappoint.
Within a relatively short time, he held the wayward sole of her boot
in his hand.
She
limped toward him, and reached out for it, but he did not immediately
give it to her. Instead, he made a sign to her, and turning away, he
indicated that she should follow him again, traveling once more in
that bent over position.
Shutting
her eyes on a deep sigh, she realized she had little choice but to do
as he asked.
***
The
deeply colored green grass waved above them in the prairie’s
ever-constant breeze, while a hawk circled above them, as if curious
about the goings on below. Crows flew here and there, their
caw-cawing echoing loudly in the warm breath of the wind. Everywhere
about them was the scent of mixed grasses, mud and sweet earth. The
sun felt hot, since it was now in its zenith, but the surrounding
shrubs and grass provided some shelter from its direct heat. Only
moments ago, they had stopped on a piece of ground where a few large
rocks littered the terrain. He sat on one of those slabs now; she
resided on another, facing him. He held her boot in one hand and the
sole of that shoe in another, and he examined the footwear and its
missing bottom from every possible angle.
As
she watched, she basked in the relief of simply sitting. Sadly she’d
left her bonnet behind in her wagon, and in consequence the sun
glared down on her bare head, while the wind whisked locks of her
hair into her eyes. With an impatient hand, she pushed those strands
behind her ears.
She
gazed away from him, not focusing on anything in particular. Simply,
it seemed a better option than looking at him. Something about his
hands, something about the delicate way he handled her shoes was...
She sighed.
Frankly,
she was fascinated by him. Too fascinated.
She
rocked back, and let her aching calf muscles relax as a feeling of
peace settled over her. It was the first time since Jeffrey’s
demise that she wasn’t constantly reminded of that loss, and for a
moment, if a moment only, the hurt subsided, but only a little.
It
had been earlier in the day when she’d lost the sole of her shoe.
At first she had said nothing about it to Mr. Lakota. But, after
discovering that blood had covered her hosiery and the sole of her
foot, she’d at last confessed her problem to him.
She’d
expected his anger, for it meant that something would have to be done
about it, which would only serve to slow down their progress. But
he’d shown none of that. Instead, he’d calmly asked her to go
and retrieve it. It had seemed a simple request, for she was
accustomed to backtracking to retrieve bits of her dress after the
material had caught and torn on a branch or vine. But this was
different; she had delayed telling him about it, and the underside of
her shoe might be as far back as a mile.
He
might not know it, but she would never go so far away from him. Not
even during the day. It frightened her to be alone in this vast
expanse of prairie.
Her
thoughts caused her to stir uneasily, and she brought her gaze back
onto him. At last, he looked up at her and muttered, “Cannot fix.”
Her
heart sank. What did that mean? That she was doomed to walk over
this muddy, sticky and stone littered ground in her blood-soaked,
stocking feet?
All
she said to him, however, was, “Oh.”
“Better
I make...moccasins...for...you...walk in.”
“Moccasins?
You could make them? Here? That would be superb, indeed, if you
could. But how is that possible?”
“Cannot
fix...this. So...put together moccasins...for you.”
“But
to make them?”
“Hau,
hau.
You...cannot walk...prairie without something...protect feet.”
“That’s
true. But I suppose what I don’t understand is how is it possible
that here on the prairie you could assemble moccasins? Do you have
the proper materials?”
“Hau.
Hold
out foot.”
When
she didn’t comply at once, he stated again, a little more softly,
“Hold out foot.”
Still
she hesitated. Was it unseemly to raise her skirt so that she could
extend her foot toward him? Perhaps it was, but the rights and
wrongs of such behavior seemed the lesser of two evils. With a
shrug, as if she were releasing a weight from her bosom, she did as
he asked. At once, she realized her mistake, for as he took hold of
her by her ankle, placing it on his lap, her heart skipped a beat.
What
was this sensation of delight? This craving for more of his touch?
No, oh, no. This mustn’t be happening to her. Yet, if she were to
be honest with herself, she would have to confess to a frenzy of
excitement that was even now cascading over her nerve endings.
No!
Please no, she cried to herself. This was all wrong.
What
was the matter with her? She should feel embarrassed because he was
touching her, not...elated. She gathered her skirt around her legs
in an effort to minimize the exposure of the rest of her from his
view. But it was a wasted effort; he showed no interest in looking
at her there.
Taking
one of the bags from around his shoulder, he brought out a moccasin
and placed it up against the bottom of her foot. She gasped a
little, for as soon as he touched her toes, tiny sparks of fire shot
over her, from the tip of that foot to the top of her head.
Luckily
it appeared that he didn’t notice her strange behavior, and he
explained, “These moccasins...made for me...by Walks-in-sunshine.
On journey...like this, need... many moccasins. I...cut this...for
you.”
Mia,
who was more than a little upset with the waywardness of her conduct,
glanced away from him, speculating as best she could on what could
possibly be the cause of her body’s rapture. Truth was, she’d
barely registered what he’d said.
Instead
her attention centered inward as she admonished herself. Perhaps,
she thought, Mr. Lakota reminded her of Jeffrey. Could this be the
reason for her misguided reaction to him?
Yes,
yes. That was it; it had to be, for she was in love with Jeffrey,
would always be in love with Jeffrey.
Still,
cautioned an inner voice, this man didn’t look at all like her
deceased husband; he acted nothing like him, and she wasn’t at all
confused about who was who.
Or
was she?
Wasn’t
it possible that some deep and uninspected part of her was a little
muddled? After all, Mr. Lakota was a young man, and she had been a
newly married woman...and Mr. Lakota had rescued her from what would
have been a gruesome death. It was only natural, wasn’t it, that
she might place her emotions for Jeffrey onto this other man?
Yes.
It had to be.
Yet,
she countered her own thoughts, she was more than aware that her
reaction to Mr. Lakota was not simply emotional. It was sensuous,
perhaps a little wanton in nature. Was it possible that her body,
having been treated to the delights shared by a married couple, was
flustered by the presence of this man? And that it was her body’s
reaction to him, not her own?
Ah,
she sighed deeply. This was more than likely the truth, she
reasoned. What she was experiencing was little more than a physical
reaction.
Yet,
again that inner voice cautioned, if it were no more than physical,
if it were purely platonic, why was it that she was experiencing the
joy of his touch?
Enough!
Her thoughts on the matter were more troubling than the action of
his touch.
Still,
she wondered, what should she do? Should she withdraw into herself?
Mentally lock herself away from this man’s influence?
Nice
thought, she concluded, but hardly practical. Given their situation,
and seeing that her life depended on this man’s ability to get the
two of them safely across the prairie, such introversion would hardly
be possible.
All
at once he placed her foot back on the ground, ending their physical
contact. Relieved, she breathed out slowly, expecting that the lack
of his touch would improve her problem.
But
it hardly mattered. Her body still tingled from the contact.
Modestly, she shook her skirt free to place it over her ankles,
hoping against hope that the action would settle her.
But
it didn’t.
Only
the quickness of a moment passed, however, before he reached out
toward her again, and said, “Need...other foot.”
“Oh,”
she articulated. “Of course.” She gulped.
She
lifted her skirt up again, and guardedly placed her other foot in his
hand. Abruptly, a similar thrill of excitement raced over her nerve
endings.
She
swallowed. Hard.
She
needed a distraction, she decided. Perhaps conversation might prove
to divert her attention. It was worth an attempt, she reasoned, and
so she asked, “Did you say that someone called Walks-in-sunshine
made these moccasins for you?”
“Hau,
hau.”
“Oh.
Is she somebody special to you?”
“She...future
wife.”
Mia’s
stomach dropped, and she felt as if those words had delivered her a
blow. So, she thought...this man was spoken for. Of course he would
be, she reckoned as her thoughts raced ahead. He was young, he was
kind and he was also handsome. What female worth her weight wouldn’t
do all she could to make this man hers?
She
leaned back in her seating as she asked, “Could you tell me
about...what was her name? Walks-in-sunshine?”
He
paused, and as he glanced up to survey her, she thought his look
might be wary. Nevertheless, after his initial hesitation, such
watchfulness seemed to disappear from his countenance, and he said,
“She...beautiful. Wait for me. We ...promise to...marry.”
“To
marry?” Mia almost choked on the words. She glanced away from
him. She felt...jealous...
Was
he aware of her reaction to this news? How embarrassing it would be
if he were.
But
he was continuing to speak, and he said, “She...I...love since
we...children.”
“I
see,” Mia responded. “Then what will she think if you cut up
these moccasins for me? They are so beautifully made, and were
especially sewn for you. Might that not upset her?”
“She...understand.”
Would
she? Mia couldn’t help but speculate that Mr. Lakota might be
wrong about that. If this man were her own, she would care.
He
was continuing to speak, however, and he uttered, “She...not
understand...if leave...someone...hurt when could...fix. Give...me
other...boot.”
She
complied.
“We...cache...these.”
He held up her boots.
“Cache?”
“Bury
them. Leave no...trace of...us here.”
He
had set himself to work over the leather, and she felt odd as she sat
before him, watching him cut the moccasins down with a knife and a
sure hand. His fingers were strong, long and handsome, and she
wondered how they might feel upon...
Abruptly,
she pulled up her thoughts, and she asked, “Might I help?”
“Know...how...use
sinew and...bone?”
“Sinew?
Bone? Have you no thread and needle?”
“One
not...find needle...thread...in nature.”
“Oh,”
was all she said. Then, “You have none of the finer things in your
tribe? Since your mother is white, I had thought perhaps she might
keep something of the European culture around her.”
“Mother...white,
but...Indian through. What mean...finer things?”
“They
are items made by the white-man’s hand -- like needle and thread –
stuff...things that make life a little easier. I see you punching
holes there in the moccasin and then threading the hole with the
sinew. It looks to me to be slow and painstaking work. A sharp
needle with thread would make your work easier and less time
consuming.”
“No...need
for...finer things, when have nature all around.”
“Yes,
I suppose I can understand that viewpoint. But think for a moment of
a woman’s joy over acquiring a new gown in a silken fabric that
shimmers with each step she takes –- gowns are clothing, by the
way.”
“What
need of...gowns...when have soft animal...skins?”
“Perhaps
this is only a feminine reaction...a pleasure that only a woman would
understand: To wear something that she knows makes her look pretty.”
“Walks-in-sunshine
already...pretty.”
“I’m
certain she is. And it is kind of you to say so. But there are
other goods that might be considered ‘finer things’. For
instance, a sewing machine could make this work fly by.”
Without
raising his eyes to hers, Mr. Lakota jerked his chin to the left, and
said, “This...slow...because I...little time...spent doing it.
Walks-in-sunshine...quick.”
“Yes,”
agreed Mia. “I’m sure that she is.”
“Give
me foot...again.”
She
hesitated, yet she did as he requested. However, instead of gazing
at him directly, she looked up above his head. The tall grasses bent
and waved in the warm, summer breeze, as though all of nature were
performing a dance. She tried to concentrate on that.
Yet,
as he touched her foot, the warmth of his fingers produced again that
recognition of a passion she wished she didn’t feel. As the bodily
excitement swept over her nerve-endings, she became aware of a
stirring of sensation within her.
Surprise
shot through her. And so upset was she, even though her body’s
reaction was involuntary, she could barely speak. Gulping hard, she
knew she had to speak up, if only to try to dispel the guilt she
felt. Changing the subject, she asked, “Why is the wind so
constant here?”
“No...thing
to...stop it.”
“There’s
grass.”
“But
no trees. No...hills...mountains. Nothing to...block it.”
“At
home we of course experience the wind. But never so on-going as what
the prairie offers. Here, it is always blowing.”
She
noticed that he had come down on his knees before her, as he fit a
moccasin to first one foot and then to the other. It reminded her
that Jeffrey had proposed to her from a similar position. But before
she could explore that thought, he gazed up at her, and with one
eyebrow cocked, he asked, “Have trees?”
“Of
course.”
“Have
hills or...mountains?”
“Yes.”
“That...why.
Stand now.”
She
was only too happy to do as he asked, and she rose up to her feet.
As she did so, he pressed a finger over where her big toe hit the
moccasin, then, as though he found fault with the shoe, he adjusted
the back of it, his fingers tickling her there, creating havoc within
her.
“How
feel?”
She
swallowed grimly, for she almost answered him with the honesty of her
wayward emotions. “They are perfect,” she replied in a voice
barely over a whisper.
“Waste,
good,” he acknowledged, echoing the word with a motion of his hand
out and away from his chest.
“Does
that gesture that you make mean something?” she asked.
“Mean
good. It good.” He rose up to his feet, and came to tower over
her. He said, “Take few...steps.”
He
had positioned himself dangerously close to her, and she could barely
control the impulse to throw herself against him. She took a few
steps away from him instead.
“Turn.”
“Why?”
she queried, although she did as he requested, and spun around in a
circle.
“Moccasins
must be...comfortable,” he explained. “Still feel good?”
“Yes.”
He
nodded. “Then we...continue. Must find...shelter for...night.
Ho’piye
unya’npi kta!”
“What
did you just say?” she asked as she glanced up at him.
“Said...
’all right, let’s go’.”
“Yes.
Yes, that would be good. We should keep moving along.”
He
smiled at her then, and seeing it, as well as his so obvious approval
of her, she almost swooned. But she didn’t. Instead, her thoughts
turned inward once more, and she admonished herself. Briefly she
wondered why her sense of moral right and wrong was not standing her
in good stead against this man.
At
least, she thought, he seemed oblivious to her stirrings. She bit
her lip, wishing that she were blind to it, as well. Unhappily, it
simply was not to be..
Writing under the pen names of Karen Kay and Gen Bailey, Karen is a multi-published author of Native American historical romances. She has been praised by reviewers and fans alike for bringing the historic American Indian culture to life, and she has been nominated for several different awards. Karen's great-grandmother was Choctaw Indian, and because of this, she is honored to be able to write stories that depict the Native American point of view.
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